Jessy

R.I.P. Casey Calvert

nobody@vox.com(So Jessy) — Sun, 09 Dec 2007 22:36:47 -0800

Hawthorne Heights used to be one of my favorite bands, and Casey's death came as a shock to me. I really want to know his cause of death, but it hasn't been released yet. The band says that they can say for sure he was not doing anything illegal. We'll see though. He might have been on something without anyone being aware of it. I hope not, but you never know.

So when was the last time I updated this thing? It's been a WHILE. For all my invisible readers, I apologize. Life has been so hectic, insane and stressful over the past month. I have written so many essays that even the mere thought of writing for pleasure gave me shivers down my spine. And I love to write, so you know my professors had dumped a load of writing assignments on me.

Thankfully, tomorrow is my last "official" day of school. Friday is my first final (so I have Tuesday through Thursday off!), and my last final is next Tuesday. Yipee.

I'm officially broke. If it weren't for my mother, I'd be living on the streets.

Hamlet got neutered ten days ago. He is doing well and hasn't seemed to notice that he's been de-balled. Currently, he is laying at my feet chewing on a rawhide.

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This ^ ^ is a picture of Hamlet and his sister at the rabies clinic on 11/17/07. His sister's name is Schnookums. Heheh. She is the one that is turned away from the camera. We were able to meet up with his sister's owners, it was neat to see her!

We got our Christmas tree yesterday. I haven't started to feel the Christmas spirit yet, but the tree is helping a bit. The first thing Hamlet did when he saw the tree? He sniffed around, checked it out, and then peed right next to it. And he hasn't had an accident in months! Grrr, he must think the tree means that he is outside or something.

Lately I've been in super cleaning mode, in order to sort of pay my mom back for the money she's been loaning me. Mopping, vaccumming and dusting... oh my!

Alright, I suppose that's all for now. I have to finish writing up an extra credit paper due tomorrow before I turn in for the night.

Question of the Day: Who do you think will win "America's Next Top Model"?
My answer: Chantal.

Yours...? Leave me a comment to let me know! Finale's on Wednesday!!

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Bragging

nobody@vox.com(So Jessy) — Mon, 19 Mar 2007 23:40:53 -0700

I got the third highest grade on my speech! Woo hoo! That made my day.
And then I got an 82% on my italian exam!

I know people don't like to hear people brag, but I really needed something like this to make me feel better about myself. I've felt so dumb lately, so socially retarded, nothing seemed to be sufficient. Now at least I feel smart.

Nisha moved out today. I was excited about him moving at first because I thought that it would make me want to see him and hang out with him more. That I've found is true, but I wasn't thinking about how much I would miss him! There is an empty place not only on the couch, but in my heart. I know I'll get over it quickly, because our relationship will be so much better with him living in a different house.

I'm reading an awesome book about this girl that was raped by her dad when she was little. In the novel, she is in her teens and she is really messed up (running away, doing drugs, etc.). The story is basically about the relationship between her and her mother. It's a true story which is what really makes it good.

I'm having a really hard time concentrating on writing this because me and Julia are playing scrabble online. I'll write more tomorrow!

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I should really be...

nobody@vox.com(So Jessy) — Wed, 14 Mar 2007 22:31:52 -0700

I should really be doing my chemistry homework.

But I don't feel like it. At all.

After getting barely three hours of sleep last night, I can't seem to concentrate because the incessant thought of, "sleep, comfy bed, dreams, la la land" won't leave me alone.

I cannot believe I let myself get so behind on school. I mean I am actually paying to go to school, and I'm doing really bad. It's all because I don't get enough sleep at night, so I only have so much energy to use during the day. I go to school at eight, work at one, and finally get home at five- thirtyish. By the time I get home, I'm literally brain dead. All I want to do is sleep. I usually do all of the easy homework that doesn't take much concentration, and then relax till I go to bed. I always figure, I'll do the major studying tomorrow, or, I can put it off until the weekend when I'll be more alert. But then, I can't sleep at night. I just lay there like a fucking zombie. Pisses me off. So then the whole cycle repeats the next day. By the time the weekend comes, I'm so tired, that I sleep the weekend away.

Now, I'm so far behind, that I don't think that I will ever truely catch up.

I'm working (not so) diligently on my chemistry homework. I've completed 13 out of 28 problems, and I figured that I need to get 26 right to get an A. So 13 more to go... yay (or not).

I lurrve my italian class though. It's flippin awesome. Mi piace il courso di italiano ma no non mi piace la chimica. (I like my italian course, but I don't like chemistry.)

Quali e il tuo numero di telefono? (What is your telephone number?)

Mio numero di telefono e nove, nove, sei, otto, sette, sei, sette. (My telephone number is - you translate lol-)

Quanti anni hai? (How old are you?)

Ho dicotto anni. (I am 18 years old.) <-- I'm not sure if I spelled dicotto right, and I'm too lazy to look. But, basically it means 18.

Dove abitano i genitori? (Where do your parents live?)

Il mia madre abita e Modesto ma il mio padre abita e Salida. (My mom lives in Modesto but my dad lives in Salida.)

Okay, enough of that! :) Today was really embarrassing though. La professoressa called on me, and pointed to the board and asked (in italian) if this is the time right now, what time will it be in two hours? The time on the board was one thirty, and I somehow didn't get the part about two hours from now, so I hesitantly answered: one thirty??? I knew I was wrong, but I had to answer something. Come to find out, the answer was supposed to be: "Fra due ore sono le tre e mezzo." Gah.

Anyway, seriously, no more talking about italian! lol. I guess my life is pretty uneventful. I've been so bored lately, so starving for human interaction that doesn't consist of school or work. Because I'm a lame ass hermit by nature, I don't have many real "friends" to go HEY, lets go hang out at your house. It's kind of depressing, because all of high school I always thought I would make real friends, good friends in college. And I haven't. I've met a lot of new and interesting people, but they are all just acquantances (sp??? =/). Just people you say hi to when you see them in the library, or run into in the science building. I guess my "make friends" skill is extremely rusty. Which is weird, because my mom says I'm really charismatic, and that all the students at the driving school think I'm "cool". It doesn't make sense to me. I just need to try harder I guess.

I've been feeling so constrained because of the wanting to be social, but no one to hang out with thing. I want to be free, I want to PARTY and have fun. LIVE LIFE. I just don't know how. Someone hand me "Social Life for Dummies" please.

I hope I'm not as boring as I think I am.

On another note, tell me why I am a fucking science major? I just started thinking about chemistry again, and how it is now due in an hour and a half. I hate, hate, hate (x 100000000000000) chemistry. Someone shoot me, cause I have about five more chem classes to take. I want to be an english major, but the money is in science. AND I WANT THE MONEY MWAHAHAHAHAHAHA. I can still write and publish stuff as a scientist. Boring stuff, but you know, stuff nonetheless.

Okay, I'm really off now to do my lame ass chemistry fucking homework :D.

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Recap

nobody@vox.com(So Jessy) — Thu, 15 Feb 2007 20:54:04 -0800

I haven't posted a serious blog in exactly two months. But let me tell you, if I had, you would be seriously bored.

So my last post was December 15, 2006. Daniel had a birthday (he turned 14) on the 17th of December, and Christmas was the 25th (well, duh). My mom, Daniel, Nisha and I went to my papa's house to celebrate Christmas with my aunts, cousins and some of Kay's (Kay is my papa's girlfriend) family.

For the New Year, we went to my moms friend Sherry's, brother's house. It was so boring and my mom got SO drunk. Around eleven o' clock I managed to talk my mom into leaving, and we went to my papa's house.

On January 5th, I started feeling sick. I week later I went to the doctor, and found out through a blood test that I had mono! I had it really, really bad. My throat was so swollen that I couldn't eat, and my head (yes, MY HEAD) was so swollen that it was squeezing my eardrums (or something) so I that it felt like I had a never ending earache. My ears hurt so bad that I had a really hard time sleeping. If you've ever had mono, you know that all you DO is sleep, so it was horrible. I would sleep for fifteen minutes and wake up because of my ears, and then I would turn my head and my neck would hurt. It would feel like I had just gotten major whiplash or something. The mono also affected my liver, so technically, I'm still in full blown mono right now. I feel pretty good on the outside, but if I press against my liver, it hurts slightly. And the horror of my liver being affected is that I can't eat greasy or SPICY foods!!!! I just about died when I heard that, because I adore spicy food. Of course, at that time I couldn't even eat anything so it didn't really matter, but still.

Because of the mono, I had to drop my winter class. So now I have a big, fat W on my transcripts. Since my bloodwork still isn't coming back normal, I have to take it easy. Unfortunately, I just started the spring semester, and let me tell you, my schedule is INSANELY CRAZY. I have four classes MWF and I made them so they are all seven minutes apart. I also made my schedule where I have to literally run from class to class, because they are all on opposite sides of the campus. And Stan State is pretty big.

Yesterday was my first day of classes, and I feel like crap today. If I don't take it easy, I could relapse and get much worse than I was. At least if I don't relapse, I'll be losing a lot of weight from all the running! Haha.

So pretty much since January 5th, I've been doing absolutely nothing. I went back to work last week, which was hectic. While I was gone, the schedules got screwed up and the paperwork was barely touched. I spent the whole first week fixing everything and catching up the paperwork.

So school! It's interesting. I'm taking LOGIC, CHEMISTRY, PUBLIC SPEAKING (ew), and ITALIAN. I am so, so, so excited about learning Italian. Yesterday, the professor walked right in the room and started rambling in Italian. At the end of the class, she talked in english, and told us that she will never again speak english because we won't learn italian that way. Which makes sense. It's a really awesome class, I can tell it's going to be lots of fun by the way she teaches it. She pretty much parades around the room talking nonsense, but I actually did learn a lot (for a first day) and left the class with a huge smile on my face. Come ti cheeami? Mi cheeamo Jessica. LOL. I don't know if i spelled that right.

Chemistry actually looks easy. The syllabus describes every chapter, and it seems like at least half of it I have already learned in the Chemistry class I took freshman year, and a quarter of it I learned in Enviromental Science last year. The class will probably go into more depth then what I have already learned, but it seems I have a good basis for succeeding.

Okay, no one is going to read all of this rambling about school, so I'm going to shut up now about that.

In other news: my mom bought me and her new queen sized beds with her taxes. I have had the same, twin sized bed since I was two, and it's kinda nasty now. My dad said he bought it for fifty dollars, so I guess it's not even a nice, old bed. I've slept on it for sixteen years, so I wouldn't know if it's a cheapy bed. It's all I've ever known!

NISHA: Things with him and I aren't going so well right now. A couple of weeks after I got sick I found out about a huge, CONTINUOUS lie that he told, so things have been pretty rocky. He really needs to move out, as I need my space to get over it, and so I can learn to trust him again (if I can).

DANIEL: Brothers, geez. So annoying, but you gotta love them. He is doing a lot better in school now, which is good. Danny did get suspended for cussing out a substitute teacher a few weeks ago (hah, he is our mothers child), but at least he isn't in danger of working at Burger King for the rest of his life anymore. Gosh Burger King, how I totally do not miss thee. I can't believe it's been almost a year since I QUIT. Gah.

CHRIS: is doing well. He got a good job in Sunnyvale or something (?) that pays around seventeen dollars an hour (I think? lol).

I guess I've rambled all I can right now... I can't think of anything more to say. Let's pray I don't over-do myself and get mono again. No more W's!!! Hehe.

The OC is starting in a few minutes, so I have to hurry downstairs to watch it. I can't believe how entirely stupid the show has gotten. Since there are only two more episodes left, I feel obliged to watch it though.

Later!

<3Jessy

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Lazy

nobody@vox.com(So Jessy) — Fri, 15 Dec 2006 00:01:15 -0800

All day... no, all WEEK I have been laying around my house doing absolutely NOTHING. I have been alone (plus!) and I've mostly done only what I want to do. It has been so, so, sooo very long since I have had even one day like that, let alone a week. Finals are bliss! I had to go Monday and Thursday (today) this week. Monday was regular schedule, and today I had my government final. I am feeling pretty good about things, especially considering I'm not failing anything. Because of laziness, I allowed my "for sure" A in english to drop to a B. Oh well. All my grades are going to be B's, and I might get one or two (hopefully not!) C's.

Today I think I reached the point where I'm getting bored with being by myself. Everyday this week I had at least one productive thing to do, but today I really haven't. Monday was normal, I went to school and worked at the driving school. Tuesday I worked at Victoria's Secret, and Wednesday I worked at the driving school again. Today, all I had was my government final. It was from 11:15 to 1:15, but Sorina and I both were done with the final and home by 12:30. So after that, all day, I have been a TV slash internet whore. My butt seriously hurts! Ha ha.

I watched the OC episode tonight. It was so stupid, yet entirely addicting. It was "Chrismukkah" in the Cohen household. Ryan and Taylor fell off of a ladder together and were thrown into an "alternate universe" where the world as they know it had been turned upside down. In reality, they were safe and sound in the hospital with friends and family waiting for them to awake from the harmless coma that they were in. The only way thay could wake up from this coma was to finish any unresolved business in the alternate universe. Pretty pointless, but interesting nonetheless. I can't imagine Summer being a bimbo.

My mom just walked up and scared the hell out of me! Oh, my god haha. It made me scream! I guess I shall get off the laptop now. Perhaps I will go to sleep, or maybe I will lay in bed and begin a new book. Choices, choices.

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Cancelled

nobody@vox.com(So Jessy) — Fri, 13 Oct 2006 09:22:18 -0700

My first class was cancelled today. Usually, I would be jumping for joy, but I frantically rushed to get ready this morning, zoomed the half hour drive to school to be greeted by a sign on the door that said 'Cancelled'. Ughhh. I could have taken my time, not risked my life driving like an insane person and spent more time with Nisha. Grrrr. So then I was like, "Oh, I'll call Nisha." So I break out my phone, dial his number annnnnnnd.... my service was suspended because I didn't pay my bill yesterday! HAHA. I could have sworn that when I got my phone turned on that the lady said the bill was due on the 13th! Whatever. So now I'm in the computer lab in the library and I just got done paying my bill online so my phone should (hopefully) reconnect soon.

I still have forty-five minutes until my next class starts! I don't know what to do... I don't usually spend a lot of time at school. I mostly rush here, rush to work and then go home to relax. I never spend any spare time here because I set up my schedule so all my classes would be ten minutes apart.

I'm going to sign off now and go outside to see if they've reconnected my phone. The site said it would take about two hours, but I might get lucky!

-Jessy

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