I should really be...

I should really be doing my chemistry homework.

But I don't feel like it. At all.

After getting barely three hours of sleep last night, I can't seem to concentrate because the incessant thought of, "sleep, comfy bed, dreams, la la land" won't leave me alone.

I cannot believe I let myself get so behind on school. I mean I am actually paying to go to school, and I'm doing really bad. It's all because I don't get enough sleep at night, so I only have so much energy to use during the day. I go to school at eight, work at one, and finally get home at five- thirtyish. By the time I get home, I'm literally brain dead. All I want to do is sleep. I usually do all of the easy homework that doesn't take much concentration, and then relax till I go to bed. I always figure, I'll do the major studying tomorrow, or, I can put it off until the weekend when I'll be more alert.  But then, I can't sleep at night. I just lay there like a fucking zombie. Pisses me off. So then the whole cycle repeats the next day. By the time the weekend comes, I'm so tired, that I sleep the weekend away.

Now, I'm so far behind, that I don't think that I will ever truely catch up.

I'm working (not so) diligently on my chemistry homework. I've completed 13 out of 28 problems, and I figured that I need to get 26 right to get an A. So 13 more to go... yay (or not).

I lurrve my italian class though. It's flippin awesome. Mi piace il courso di italiano ma no non mi piace la chimica. (I like my italian course, but I don't like chemistry.)

Quali e il tuo numero di telefono? (What is your telephone number?)

Mio numero di telefono e nove, nove, sei, otto, sette, sei, sette. (My telephone number is - you translate lol-)

Quanti anni hai? (How old are you?)

Ho dicotto anni. (I am 18 years old.) <-- I'm not sure if I spelled dicotto right, and I'm too lazy to look. But, basically it means 18.

Dove abitano i genitori? (Where do your parents live?)

Il mia madre abita e Modesto ma il mio padre abita e Salida. (My mom lives in Modesto but my dad lives in Salida.)

Okay, enough of that! :) Today was really embarrassing though. La professoressa called on me, and pointed to the board and asked (in italian) if this is the time right now, what time will it be in two hours? The time on the board was one thirty, and I somehow didn't get the part about two hours from now, so I hesitantly answered: one thirty??? I knew I was wrong, but I had to answer something. Come to find out, the answer was supposed to be: "Fra due ore sono le tre e mezzo." Gah.

Anyway, seriously, no more talking about italian! lol. I guess my life is pretty uneventful. I've been so bored lately, so starving for human interaction that doesn't consist of school or work. Because I'm a lame ass hermit by nature, I don't have many real "friends" to go HEY, lets go hang out at your house. It's kind of depressing, because all of high school I always thought I would make real friends, good friends in college. And I haven't. I've met a lot of new and interesting people, but they are all just acquantances (sp??? =/). Just people you say hi to when you see them in the library, or run into in the science building. I guess my "make friends" skill is extremely rusty. Which is weird, because my mom says I'm really charismatic, and that all the students at the driving school think I'm "cool". It doesn't make sense to me. I just need to try harder I guess.

I've been feeling so constrained because of the wanting to be social, but no one to hang out with thing. I want to be free, I want to PARTY and have fun. LIVE LIFE. I just don't know how. Someone hand me "Social Life for Dummies" please.

I hope I'm not as boring as I think I am.

On another note, tell me why I am a fucking science major? I just started thinking about chemistry again, and how it is now due in an hour and a half. I hate, hate, hate (x 100000000000000) chemistry. Someone shoot me, cause I have about five more chem classes to take. I want to be an english major, but the money is in science. AND I WANT THE MONEY MWAHAHAHAHAHAHA. I can still write and publish stuff as a scientist. Boring stuff, but you know, stuff nonetheless.

Okay, I'm really off now to do my lame ass chemistry fucking homework :D.